dreams and fireflies

I’ve been somewhat tongue tied (or finger tied)
since returning to my blog after two months away.
I have so many thoughts to share with you,
but haven’t been quite able to write them down.
Writer’s block, I suppose…or my little ones? ;)

I keep this blog (and you) so close to my heart
that I find myself choosing my words carefully,
not in the sense of a lack of ‘realness’ though.

I understand how far our written voices carry.

In my regular here’s-what-I’m-working-on posts,
I chat as though you’re sitting at my kitchen table with me.
It’s the heart to heart posts that don’t seem to just flow lately
(which I don’t quite get because I’m a heart on your sleeve’r)!

There are reasons why I write this blog.
a) I love it and b) it’s my little creative place
and c) you inspire me to keep at a little dream or two.

dream \ˈdrēm\
noun, often attributive
: a strongly desired goal or purpose

 With that said, one of the little thoughts on my heart
has to do with an email that I received recently,
and those of us who are thinkers and dreamers,
but sometimes feel like we’re not doers and achievers.

Those little negative thoughts or comparisons that have us feeling like we’re undeserving, clueless, not good enough or as good as, not passionate enough, not ambitious or motivated enough, or self-disciplined enough, blah blah blah.

Let me just say that you wouldn’t feel ANY of those feelings
if you weren’t ______ enough.

You wouldn’t care.

Sometimes being a blogger makes me feel like
I should be so lit up with passion, that I glow like a firefly at all times.

Honestly, there are moments when I feel dimly lit at best
and others when I could take over the light of the moon if it were to disappear.

Maybe you’ve been there, too?

It’s normal and it’s called life.
We are so much more than our dreams and well, sometimes we flicker.

If you are taking even the littlest of purposeful steps towards the dream,
you are enough.

Whether your dream is to open a bakery or an Etsy shop,
start a new blog, finish decorating your house, or win a national spelling bee,
just keep at it and don’t let your light go out.

(Someone’s in a metaphorical mood tonight.)

For those of you that don’t know,
one dream of mine is to design my own fabric line,
and sell it by the yard (along with coordinating furniture pieces & accessories)
in a cute little vintage chic brick and mortar shop of my own, as well as online.

While I was away from my blog for a couple of months,
I thought about the challenges that were dimming my light and
kept me from introducing the line last year:

One of them is that there is still so much I need to learn about the entire process from design to fabric sourcing and printing techniques to sales.
(Did I mention fabric sourcing?!)

So, I went searching…


My book order arrived and I’ll be a little bookworm for the next week or so.
I promise to share anything that will help those of you with a similar dream
or those of you who just want to make a yard of fabric for a pillow.

It’s another step in the right direction
and I know that my fabric line will happen when it’s supposed to.

The same goes for you.

Goodnight fireflies,
Jami

Speaking of dreamers,
these sweet bloggers made publishing dreams come true recently…

Jennifer of Celebrating Everyday Life
published the first issue of her BEAUTIFUL new magazine.

It’s available electronically and in print.
I can’t wait to get my hands on the print version.
(It’s a thick issue, too!)

Kerryanne of Shabby Art Boutique published a ‘shabbilicious’ new emagazine
with pages and pages of shabby-French-vintage inspiration.

Comments

  1. Carol Cook says:

    Oh, how exciting to be dreaming of designing your own fabric line.

    I am retiring in exactly 8 weeks and I dream of opening an Etsy shop. The only thing holding me back was a day job and soon that obstacle will be removed. It is exciting to think that I CAN do what I dreamed about doing 40 years ago – not the Etsy, but a shop.

    Six years ago my husband got off the corporate treadmill and became a full time artist. He is having so much fun. Everybody should have so much fun.

    To quote Bob Dylan from Forever Young,

    May God bless and keep you always
    May your wishes all come true

    • Jami says:

      That’s exciting and I wish you all the best with your Etsy shop, Carol. You have a great community of Etsy girls here if you need any help. Yes…we should all just have FUN. Thank you for the Bob Dylan quote! Back at you.

      • I’d just like to pop in to Carol’s post Jami and say: I still work my 9-5 and opened my Etsy shop in February. Somehow I just knew the time was right. Yes its hard to come home, make dinner, and then work on my shop photos and post my things; but it is soooo worth it. I’ve had some success, at least enough to keep from overdrafting my checkbook this month! I take photos on the weekend so I have good light and then post during the week. I don’t have a ton of things listed but it’s a start, that’s all you need – a start! And the Etsy community along with blogs like this one (I LOVE YOU JAMI!) are so inspiring. Go for it!!

  2. Erica says:

    I so needed this tonight. Thank you, Jami, for the reminder.

    Erica

  3. keya says:

    what a wonderful post, it warmed my heart and lifted my spirits. Thanks Jami.
    keya
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  4. wishing you huge successes in your journey, jami! this is such a lovely post:) happy weekend!
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  5. SueAnn says:

    I love your dream…and I am sure you will be showing your new line very soon. So exciting! Sometimes with dreams is just knowing where to start and that seems overwhelming at times. But you have encouraged me to push ahead and persevere! Thank you
    Hugs
    SueAnn

  6. From your lips to God’s ears………I’ve often thought I should compare my dreams to a seesaw…..up and down for sure! I love your dream because I’m a seamstress and we all try to find just the right fabric that was in our imagination…..you’ll be able to!
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    • Jami says:

      Yes…that’s half the reason I wanted to start my own line. Can’t find what I want! Maybe it’s seamstress-itis. (Although I don’t consider myself a seamstress…I just like to sew. I think you have to be REALLY good at it to earn that title. hehe!) Thank you, Lorraine!

  7. Tabitha says:

    I have put my dreams on hold till motherhood becomes more manageable. This post is very heartwarming and I hope ur dreams will spark soon
    hugs
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    • Jami says:

      I totally get that Tabitha. I’ve been there and I’m still there. It’s what I meant when I said, “We are so much more than our dreams.” Thank you for the encouragement!…I’m just taking little steps until things happen when they’re supposed to. xo

  8. Lynda Bergman says:

    Thank you for your thoughts, today. I want to design fabric, too and have been studying and researching fabric design. Lynda

  9. Kathy says:

    I’ve always been In awe of people that design fabric. I’m MUCH older than you so I’ve had many dreams haha. The funny thing about dreams is they continue to change throughout your life. My dreams have always been a bit modest when compared to others, but,none the less, they always took me to a happy place in times of same old same old. I think if we ever get to a point when we run out of dreams that would be very sad. It’s best that it takes time to achieve some then we really realize how blessed we are. If “success” was the key to happiness there wouldn’t be so many celebrity train wrecks. I find the journey is at least half the fun. You brought up a wonderful thought!
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    • Jami says:

      That was beautiful, Kathy! A dream is a dream and mine change too. I love your wisdom about dreams taking time so we realized how blessed we are…and happiness being more important than the success. TRUTH. Thank you!

  10. cassie says:

    i think you would be amazing at this venture…. keep on keeping on, friend!
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  11. What a beautiful and heart felt post. SO like YOU! Your words of encouragement to others using yourself as an example could not be more perfect. Sometimes, identifying the dream is the most difficult part of the journey and you have THAT part behind you. Keep doing what you’re doing my sweet friend….all things in time! xo
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  12. Toni says:

    I think this blog needs a post about a 115 year old kitchen with chalk board painted cabinets. Know anyone interested in this;)

    • Jami says:

      Ha! Thank you for commenting, sis. Aw. I did mention that I helped with your kitchen in an earlier post…but yes, I do want to share pictures when we finish waxing them! Are you home today?
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  13. Diana says:

    Thanks Jami this was heart warming. Everybody keep dreaming and move forward and one day your reality will match those dreams.

  14. Alima says:

    My dream is for you to design your own fabric line too because I know I would love every bit of it and it would be all the fabric I’m ways so desperately searching for, but can never find!
    Can’t wait!!

  15. Oh Jami- What an amazing post. I was so happily reading being touched and inspired and THEN I was totally surprised to see you highlight my magazine!! WOW!! What a double-blessing!!! I am so excited about your fabric line!! I think you are so talented that I know it will be amazing!! I totally can’t wait for sneak-peeks!! Please let me know if I can help in any way. Big, BIG Hugs!!! :-D

  16. Jamie,
    You will have your fabric line and shop, I feel sure of it. I have to say that the opening of your post brought me to tears. I think we all (especially bloggers) compare ourselves to everyone and every blog out there–we have so many talented people around us all the time it certainly can make us doubt ourselves. We need to stop comparing ourselves to others and just go after what we want.

    Good Luck and Thanks
    Karen
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    • Jami says:

      Thank you, Karen. When I first started blogging, it was hard not to compare. I think it’s pretty natural in the beginning. But, it’s so counterproductive to worry about it and I’m at a place where I just do my little thing over here. I didn’t mean to bring you tears! :( We are each unique and lovely in our own way…we are enough…and I couldn’t agree with you more. Thank you for the comment!

  17. laurie says:

    Jami ~ I am so excited for you as you begin a new journey! Knowing you, it will be beautiful, unique, and oh so successful! We’re behind you all the way, my sweet friend! Looking forward to seeing more of your creativity! :)

    xoxo laurie
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  18. Jill Flory says:

    So well worded Jami! I am still trying to figure out exactly what my dream is – LOL! But I am starting to live it out too – I have the etsy shop but I am so busy with custom orders right now I don’t even have time to create to add to it! And that is a good thing right now cause I need the cash flow. I guess right now I’d have to say I am working towards my business actually making a little bit of money so I don’t fee like I’m a drain on family finances – does that make sense? I want to be creative and have fun but not if I’m losing my husband’s hard earned money to do it!
    I can’t wait till your dream is fulfilled cause I dream of creating with YOUR fabrics!
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  19. Jayne says:

    Great post, thanks for the encouragement :)
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  20. Mimi says:

    This was a nice post for me to find today. I needed to be reminded so thanks!

  21. Marian says:

    Jami,
    I am so glad you wrote this post. Especially the part about having to learn more before moving forward. I recently accepted an opportunity to teach a few workshops this summer with a local floral designer and felt completely out of my league. After a few weeks of soul searching, I finally realized that I am equal to this and I just need to prepare really well. It’s a better direction for my career to go in and I think it will prove more fun and lucrative than running the seasonal barn sales that I have been doing. It’s not what I expected, but I think the unexpected direction change will take me to where I am really supposed to be going. The dream to be a successful artist is still very much in tact, it’s just taken on a different facet. I think as you walk forward with your projects, they will develop in unexpected ways, but ways that allow you the balance you need to experience all life has for you, with family taking special priority. In the end, I think you will look back at this journey and feel nothing but gratitude for the directions you were led in, the opportunities you received, and the timing of those opportunities. I am so grateful you are still dreaming, sweet lady. It makes me feel like I’m not alone.
    The other Marian
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  22. Cathy says:

    Shine on!!!

  23. Helen T says:

    Hello Jami
    I am so pleased you’re back posting regularly, I missed you and this post is part of the reason, so honest and real, just like I feel on occasion, tired and spent.

  24. Courtney says:

    Love this post Jami and I hear you on so many things. Your fabric line will be amazing and I’m glad to see your posts popping up again! xo
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  25. Thank you, Jamie, for another inspirational post! I am chasing my dreams and my blog should be up and running within a month or two. I am so glad that you are sharing your hopes and dreams with us. Best of luck with the fabric design, I know it will be incredible.

  26. I have a hard time posting heart to heart type posts. Not because I wouldn’t I just always get nervous about how others might take my thoughts. tutorials and sharing projects seems much safer. i think I need and want to get over it! ;) p.s. I have both of those books on my amazon wishlist. one day i’ll pick them up and start reading!
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  27. Ooooh, I so needed to read this today! My dreams are currently on hold due to the demands of mothering three young ones. I desperately try to squeeze bits and pieces of dreaming in here and there – recently started a blog to try to wedge some of ‘myself’ back into place. But I’m deep-down afraid that my dreams will remain dreams – as you put it into words, I’m afraid the reason my dreams aren’t reality yet is because of me – because if I wanted it badly enough it would be already. But you are so right, that the dream is there and that is enough. And sometimes we have to trust life’s timing. And I love this post.
    I also want to fully cheer you on in your dreams! You will get there, I know it. I have been drooling over these books myself, having recently taken the first leg of this course: http://dowhatyouloveforlife.com/pattern/
    Might be another avenue for you to consider if you are looking to educate yourself on the behind-the-scenes of the fabric industry? Then again maybe the books will be enough since you are already in the midst of it… in any case I think you are an awesome creative spirit and I love your aesthetic. Keep dreaming and doing, please!
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